Challenge

I'm wrong...
because of the pain I've felt before...
I learned to feel numb...
I learned to be on the safe side...
I don't want to feel the pain again
so I seek for perfections...
leaving in a dream...
Reality is knocking
telling me to wake up...
I'm afraid to feel the pain..
Afraid time will come and fate will test our faith...
Afraid to suffer for heartaches...
but I'm most afraid of loosing him...
If he will give up on me,