How Do You Keep The Music Playing

How come nakakatulog ka sa gabi ng mahimbing kaht na alam mong galit ako??
How come nakakausap mo ako ng parang ok lang kahit alam mong merong ndi ok??
How come nakakapag sorry ka sa isang bagay na hindi mo na alam ang talagang dahilan bakit nagkaproblema??
How come naiisip mong walang problema kahit meron!!!
Pano mo nasabing gusto mong matanggal yung pain na asa dibdib ko kung ayaw mo marinig ang past ko??
Pano mo nasabing open ka sa akin kung hindi ka naman talaga open!
Ayaw mo tanggapin yung past ko dahil ba sa nasasaktan ka? or ayaw mo i-open ang past ko para ndi mo din ma-open ang past mo??
Parang ako naglalakad na may dalang napakalaking question mark...
Hindi kita kilala dahil ikaw mismo ang may ayaw...
namimis interpret mo ang mga kinukwnto ko sayo dahil CGURO akala mo
kaya ko kinukwnto dahil pnagmamalaki ko?
nagkkwnto ako sayo dahil gusto ko magng parte kta! yesterday, today, and tommorrow...
Hindi mo man lang magawang sabihin sa akin "ayusin natin ito bago tayo matulog"
may mga problema na hindi ipinagpapabukas...
meron din mga problema na kelangan ng paliwanag...
meron din mga problema na kelangan pnag-uusapan...
pero para sayo parang wala lang...
hindi kita makitaan ng emosyon...
naniniwala na lang ako sa sinasabi mong mahal mo ako....
pero tao lang ako...

Dear Miel

I don't know how to say this in a way but...
I love you so much...
what you have said are all appreciated...
Miel, ginagawa ko lahat ng iyon para sau kz mahal kita..
I want you to feel how much I care for you,
I want you to feel how important you are to me,
and I want you to feel how much I Love You...

I don't want to have regrets someday
and then sasabihin ko sa sarili ko
sana ginawa ko na lang...
sana naging ganto ako..
sana.. sana.. sana.. puro sana

Forgive me sometimes if I am hurt, I am liable to pain
but it doesn't mean I'm tired of you...
I won't be tired miel..
ang totoo hindi ko nga maramdaman sa sarili ko na mapapagod ako sau...
I don't know why...

To make this letter short..
Just want to say thank you for everything...
I know sometimes naiinis ka sa akin...
Natitigasan ka sa ulo ko and I'm sorry for that

Miel, always remember this...
I love you so much...
I am Holding on to your words and be strong for this relationship...
I won't give up even though we have some petty quarrels or even big one's...
I would rather be silent than said the words that could hurt you so much...
but if I did.. I didn't meant to hurt you...

Miel I Love You...
I Love You So Much...
No One else but only you...

A Burnt Biscuit

One of my friend sent me an email regarding this story of a burnt biscuit...
It touches my heart because it is true...just wanna share...
Below is the story:

When I was a kid, my mom liked to make breakfast food for dinner every now and then. And I remember one night in particular when she had made breakfast after a long, hard day at work.

On that evening so long ago, my mom placed a plate of eggs, sausage and extremely burned biscuits in front of my dad. I remember waiting to see if anyone noticed! Yet all my dad did was reach for his biscuit, smile at my mom and ask me how my day was at school. I don't remember what I told him that night, but I do remember watching him smear butter and jelly on that biscuit and eat every bite!

When I got up from the table that evening, I remember hearing my mom apologize to my dad for burning the biscuits. And I'll never forget what he said: "Baby, I love burned biscuits."

Later that night, I went to kiss Daddy good night and I asked him if he really liked his biscuits burned. He wrapped me in his arms and said, "Your Momma put in a hard day at work today and she's real tired. And besides - a little burnt biscuit never hurt anyone!"

Life is full of imperfect things.....and imperfect people. I'm not the best at hardly anything, and I forget birthdays and anniversaries just like everyone else. But what I've learned over the years is that learning to accept each others faults - and choosing to celebrate each others differences - is one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship.

And that's my prayer for you today. That you will learn to take the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of your life and lay them at the feet of God. Because in the end, He's the only One who will be able to give you a relationship where a burnt biscuit isn't a deal-breaker!

We could extend this to any relationship. In fact, understanding is the base of any relationship, be it a husband-wife or parent-child or friendship!

"Don't put the key to your happiness in someone else's pocket - keep it in your own."

- see the story??? isn't it true?? after reading the story naging thankful na naman ako..because my miel is understanding as his dad.. i know i'm a hardheaded girl so i'm praying and hoping that he won't lose his patience to understand my imperfects.

"Love takes effort and acceptance. It won't always be a happy ride. You'll cry when you're hurt, you'll be sad when ignored. but hold on and always remember. Love hurts when 'it's real'.."

My Home

itatagalog ko ba ito? or in an english version?
taglish na lang para mas madali....

May mga taong palipat-lipat ng bahay
Meron din mga tao ang bahay dala-dalawa
at meron din naman mga tao simula ng ipinanganak hanggang sa
nag-asawa sila iisa lang ang bahay na tinirahan nila...

Ako masasabi ko, nung una dun ako sa palipat-lipat ng bahay
kasi? mapili ako pero hindi naman masyadong mapili...
ako kasi pag pipili ako ng titirahan gusto ko ung pang matagalan
gusto ko yung masasabi ko sa sarili ko..
"ay gusto ko na dito, dito na lang ako"

Pano ko masasabi na gusto ko na yung bahay na yun at ayw ko ng lumipat?
hmmm... basta pag nafeel ko yung sarili ko na cge ito na, dito na lang ako...
pag pakiramdam ko secure ako sa lugar na yun, pag nakita ko siguro na malabong
pasukan ng mga masasamang loob (nyak sobrang tagalog)
basta!! pagnaramdaman ko ang sarili ko
mas naniniwala kasi ako sa instinct ko eh.. sabi nga nila
"woman instinct is powerful and never been wrong"

mabalik tayo una nagpalipat lipat din ako ng bahay...
meron akong tinirahan ng isang taon kala ko dun na ako hindi pa pala
habang tumatagal kasi dumadami ang tao, iba't ibang tao...
nagiging populated akala ko safe...
kaso napasukan ako ng magnanakaw...
walang iniwan sa bahay ko ni isa...
lahat inubos kahit ang pera ko at mga gamit ko..
pati pagkain! di man lang nagtira!!
buti na lang anjan ang mga magulang ko at mga kaibigan ko
supportive kahit papaano... at least daw naranasan ko..
tama naman sila...

Lumipat na naman ako ng bahay this time yung bahay
bagong-bago.. lahat bago, fully furnished ito..
pero masyado kasi mahal dahil nga sa bago...
nirentahan ko na lang.. kaya di ako may-ari..
di ko kasi sya kaya bayaran at alam ko naman na napakamahal nya
kaya ganun na lang ang ginawa ko...

ito na naman lumipat na naman ako! hahaha walang katapusang paglipat ito!
ngaun naging praktikal ako dito..
sabi ko dapat malapit sa work...
sabi ko kahit second hand na yung bahay ok lang basta praktikal...
hehe ayun nga kaso kinuha din ng may-ari... tlgang pinahiram lang s akin
no choice ako bhay nya yun, nanghihiram lang ako (drama!)

after that nakahanap naman ako...
korak!! LUMIPAT AKO ULIT!!
hehehe wag ng magtaka...

ANG BAGO KONG BAHAY! BOW!
hahaha! nakakatuwa, ang linis...
maganda ang view, napakatahimik, wala masyado nakatira
fully furnished siempre! lahat bago...
infairness mahimbing ang tulog ko sa gabi...
yung mga taong nadadaanan ko pag nauwi ako galing work..
very very approachable...
san ka pa?? ang sarap sarap tumira sa bago kong bahay...
wala ako masyado agam-agam(nyaaa tagalog ulit!)
di mo naman maalis sa akin kung nakatingin ko sa mangyayari sa future...
pero kung ano man ang mangyari.. eh di go na lang ng go!!
go with the flow...
sabi ko nga lagi pagkahiga ko sa higaan ko...
"at last Im Finally Home"
Napamahal na nga ako sa mga tao doon...
ang babait kasi...
anytime na need mo sila anjan lang sila walang problema...
nakakatuwa di ba? parang ang saya sa lugar ko?
ang saya saya sa bahay na tinitirahan ko...
at!!! masasabi ko din na...
"hay salamat! andito na ako sa BAHAY KO!"
oo akin, ako may-ari
hindi nakikirenta..

Lucky to Have Him in My Life

Yes! exactly! feeling ko ako na ang isa sa mga pinakamaswerteng nilalang...
I am really thanking God for giving "Elmar" in my life...
Yes again, his name is Elmar hahaha my one and only (Pucha! kinikilig ako! wahahaha! High School??)
Anyway...
Paano ko nasabi??
kasi:
He's thoughtful
He's sweet
He knows how to take good care of me...
He has a lot of patience! lalong lalo na sa akin..
He's not taking you for granted...
He will show how important you are in his life....
too good to be true...
san ka pa?? ano pa hahanapin mo??

” I hug you so tight in a dark of night, where we can’t see other things but only you and me… Embracing all your weakness and strength… Accepting you wholeheartedly… Giving without asking anything for a return… and then you didn’t recognize a tears fell from my eyes…”

Challenge

I'm wrong...
because of the pain I've felt before...
I learned to feel numb...
I learned to be on the safe side...
I don't want to feel the pain again
so I seek for perfections...
leaving in a dream...
Reality is knocking
telling me to wake up...
I'm afraid to feel the pain..
Afraid time will come and fate will test our faith...
Afraid to suffer for heartaches...
but I'm most afraid of loosing him...
If he will give up on me,

Scream like nobody could hear you...

Gusto kong uminom ng alak at sumigaw!!!
What I have done wrong???
Ano pang kulang sa akin???
Am I not that good as your girl???
Ganun ba kasama ang ugali ko???

Kasi I'm tired!
Nakakapagod magbgay ng buo at ng lahat lahat!
Cguro nga mali ako...
Mali dahil sa sobrang pagbibigay ko masyado ako nag-eexpect!

Mali cguro ang nag expect ako masyado...
Ang bigat bigat ng pakiramdam ko...
Kelangan ba tlgang kasama ang sakit?

Again

I hurt him again...
It's not my intention...
My fear is killing me...
I'm too sensitive when it comes to him...
I can't overcome the pain I have inside...
A pain that haven't killed for years...

I don't want to lose him
but if I will keep on tolerating myself from my fears...
I might lose him...
I want to change...
I don't wanna stay like this forever...
I wanna be with him... always...

I wanna be in his arms...
I want to stay with him... beside him...
I will try my best not to give up
But if its his heart desire to go on...

I will let you go...