"Thank you for your patience for staying even if u have every reason to leave."

Push or Pull

One night I’m lying on my bed…
Looking at the ceilings…
Feeling my feelings…
Do I have to pull the strings?
Or I have to let go of the strings?
I don’t know which one I have to choose…
I want to let it go…
I want to pull it also…
I want to let it go so he can have time and space…
I want to pull him over me coz loosing him…
Would be the biggest mistake of my life….

LEttiNg You Go MeAnS FigHtiNg fOr yOu....

I can't continue loving the person
whose inlove or still inlove w/ someone...
looking at you makes it harder
Don't think that i haven't fight for you
because I just let you go...
Have you ever think that from the start
I'd already fight for you??
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go...

my basic instinct

If time will come that you have to face your past and I’m not there to fill what’s lack
I want you to do two things for you, for me, and for that someone….
If you’ve realize that you still love her… send me a note of letting me go…
Even if it would be hard on your side to let me go…
At least we will not be leaving in a lie….
coz it will just break us into pieces until nothing' left for you
and most specially for myself...
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
so i won't you to move on...
even if it cuts like a knife...
time and space need shall be given from me to you...
don't hold my hand if your other hand wants to hold the other hand..
But if after what happen still it’s me you are longing for….
and it's me your heart crying for...
Once I’ve arrive pick me to the place where we have compromise…
i'll be waiting for you half of an hour...

Reasons for doing it so….

Why u chose me to be with you for your entire life?
Is it because you love me? Or it is your plan?
Why you want to spend the rest of your life as soon?
Is it because I’m the reason? Or just because you are not ready before compare for today?
Am I the reason why you want to start to spend the rest of your life?
Or you just can’t wait to have your own family like somebody else who already has?

My point in lying....

I can’t promise you that I will never lie to you
Coz these lies never meant of hurting you…
I would rather choose you to be hurt by the truth
Than to be hurt by my lies.
I lied or I will lie just to free you from having a burden…
But in time I will tell it also (of course not too much time)…
Its either I want to solve it first by myself
Or if I can’t find anymore strength to find a solution…
My sorrows and my failures shall not be yours
To ensure you do not fall into the same traps
Into which I fell…

Dilemma

Dilemma, dilemma, dilemma
I’m having a dilemma!
I don’t know if this is because I have phobia
Or I am just being paranoid…
I felt that he love me
But sometimes I can’t help myself to think
Yes, he do love me
Does he still love his ex-gf?
I know I should believe in him…
When I’m with him did he wish sometimes it’s his ex-gf he’s talking to and not me??
When he hugged me, or kissed me, or felt me was it me he really thinking or his ex-gf?
Does he really move on???
Lots of questions he already answered
And I believe in him
But I don’t know deep inside me there is this strange feeling…
I don’t want to entertain because it can ruin my trust to him…
Sometimes I just can’t help myself to think about it…
It’s like a sin tempting you to make a sin…
Does our song was their song????

The Way That I Love You

I have loved you since the first day I said “I love you”
I changed everything for you because “I have promised to myself that I will love you and I won’t hurt you”
I have loved you coz you’re you…
The way you have showed what you really feel for me…
The things that you used to do before…
And even if you have change,
Even if I have seen your weaknesses…
I will do my best to be strong and won’t give up…
All of those things… for you I will…..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYdObbm5q3c