Push or Pull

One night I’m lying on my bed…
Looking at the ceilings…
Feeling my feelings…
Do I have to pull the strings?
Or I have to let go of the strings?
I don’t know which one I have to choose…
I want to let it go…
I want to pull it also…
I want to let it go so he can have time and space…
I want to pull him over me coz loosing him…
Would be the biggest mistake of my life….